It’s been said many, many times before… The older you get, the more challenges life throws at you. It hit me very recently that life doesn’t get easier. The road we are driving on will continue to get steeper, curvier and narrower. High school was bliss, college was interesting and that “honeymoon” phase a few months after graduation was stressful. All that, however, was nothing. That stress, well, it accumulates. It builds and grows. I am a strong person. I believe that what you project is what you are. If you project strength, you’re more like to actually be strong. It doesn’t mean you can’t have moments of weakness, because we all know everybody is weak at times, but strength will triumph.
About four months ago, I was not in a good place. I am stuck living in a state with little to offer job-wise, let alone jobs that I could actually put on my resume. However, as luck would have it, I got a job as a supervisor in a hotel. Phew! One, yes one, weight was lifted off of my chest. Soon after, I became comfortable with my living situation. Living at home with my parents is definitely not ideal, but I can pay off my loan and save as much money as I can. I was working out 5 times a week and building my endurance as I started to run farther and farther each day, each week.
Then one day I went to the beach with my friend and my old, lingering knee injury resurfaced. I was benched for at least a week. Not long after I get into a head-on accident on my way home from work in the middle of the night. Bruises, staples and 6 hours in the ER later, I was home and on my butt for 5 days.
Is this what we live for? These highs and lows?
Believe it or not, yes. This is exactly what we live for. I have days where it’s hard to swallow. But then I have days where I can’t help but see the best out of every situation. I don’t play a victim! I work harder. If I freak out, I stand up, look in the mirror and tell myself that I’m alive. I’m a role model for my brother, and as much as it sounds corny, I’m going to have to stay strong for him. I guess the message I have for the 4 people that might read this eventually is that you can’t undermine your own strength and determination, because in a world full of unpredictable circumstances, YOU are the only person you really have control over.